MESSY LIFE BECAUSE OF BAD DECISION.
I’ve been sleeping and eating a lot these days. Only when Ramadan is around I didn’t immerse my face in food as much. But I still sleep a lot. Been acting like I’m fine but I am not. Tried very hard to cover my tears, but I couldn’t anymore. A few of my precious people noticed my emotion. I know I shouldn’t be sleeping a lot during Ramadan. That equal to wasting Ramadan that is here just for a while and now that it only has a few days left, I should really make full use of it. But I swear to Allah, I have been making a lot of du’a. Praying that my heart will once again fall in love with His love. Praying that once Ramadan go, I will end all the sins I’ve committed intentionally. I want to be the old me back then when I was 18 and 19 years old. The time where i felt all my submission to Him was so genuine and sincere. At that time, all the ibadah that I perform are solely from my heart. Hoping nothing in return except his bless. Even though at that time, I nev...